I love you,

You love me,

I love you,

You love me,

The rest of the song doesn’t matter anymore. :)

Lervett.

I climbed the door and opened the stairs
Said my pajamas and pull on my prayers
Then turned off the bed and crawled into the light
All because you kissed me goodnight

Next morning I woke and scrambled my shoes
Polished my eggs and toasted the news
I couldn’t tell my left from my right
All because you kissed me goodnight

That evening at last I felt normal again,
So I picked up my mother and called up the phone
I spoke to the puppy and threw Dad a bone
Even at midnight the sun was still bright
All because you kissed me goodnight.

Cute poem a professor shared. :)

Quotes from my favorite UPLB professor. So far.

1. “We want to be the best so we must do everything to destroy them!” -on UPLB being second best, after UP-D

2. “I respect it so much that’s why I don’t deserve to have it.”

3. “Any topic at all.  Kung gusto niyong magpunta ng Zimbabwe to research on Ebola, fine by me.” -on choosing a topic for the Library Research Paper

4. “Vague. So the opposite is clear. My name is Rain. Not clear? Maybe it’s Head and Shoulders.” -Ang cute kasi seryoso siya magsalita tapos magugulat ka na lang na kung ano-ano na ang pinagsasabi niya.

5. “Thanks to Industrial Revolution, we now have Global Warming.”

6. “Iboboto ko naman si BF para siya naman ang mamatay.”

7. “Kung bagsak kayo, at least you’re alive. You can retake it naman eh.” -on failing and having to retake ENG2. How motivating.

8. “I am a loyal fan of fake fishball.” -Ang fake fishball daw ay yung nagshi-shrink at kumukulubot pag natanggal sa mantika.

9. “The lights of the classroom are turned on. (Meralco, 2008)” – example ng sobra-sobra ang citation

10. “Oh kayo, mag-ingat kayo ha. Dito sa UP, nakakabobo dito.” -We know, sir. Thanks.

11. “I’m tired of reading about mental disorders. About myself…”

12. “I don’t see imaginary people… or do I?”

13. “Am I wearing a green shirt? It’s veridian.”

14. “Okay, ang susunod na problema niyo ay…” -Sinasabi niya pag may bagong paper na gagawin.

Just a collection of some of the cute things he said over the semester. Credits to Jyle. Di ko naisip na i-quote si Sir Mercado, sayang.

Usually, if my dream is about a guy, it’s him. It’s his hands I hold,  his body I embrace, or his lips I kiss. Maybe it’s because he’s everything I look for in a guy, but I know I don’t deserve him, cos he’s just too much.

But last night, for the first time, it wasn’t him.

It was you.

Emeyged telegerr.

I hate that I am really, really, (as in really, really talaga) bad at making important life decisions. I am so bad at it that one day I might say yes to the first guy who asks me to marry him, then end it a few weeks before the wedding because it didn’t feel right anymore, or worse, it never did at all, I just didn’t think about it enough and just, like I always do, went with the flow. I’m done with waves. (Ayan na ata ang longest poorly constructed sentence in the history of poorly-constructed statements. Sorry, hindi kasi ako nakapag-DevCom.)

Wow, may plot na ang love story ko. Haha.

I just want to be wise when it comes to major things. You know, like Kuya Borj-wise. He rarely speaks, but every time he does, he never fails to amaze me, and I always end up feeling so stupid cos he’s just so (insert expletive)-ly wise.

In short, excited na ako to go clubbing with friends sa birthday ni Cams…

…while I am failing Stat1. Here I go again. Ano ba, Chassagne. Di ka pa ba sawa sa pagiging sucky in Math?

I am happy now. I love my dorm, I love my roommates, I honestly enjoy my classes (though I find Chemistry15 and Statistics1 very hard), and I love being involved in an organization. I made a lot of changes this year, and now I’m just plain happy.

Well, that’s at least until Barbs and I start talking and ranting about why we don’t have boyfriends, how unfair it is that ugly girls have one but we don’t, and how things always start with a guy and it’s just that. It just starts, and it gets all kilig, and poof, it’s Koko Krunch. It’s sad to think that my last relationship was asdjklf4873e4632789rydjsk. God. I need a guy. I’m gathering dust here! Spiders are making freaking cobwebs around me! God!

I often talk to a friend about this (Armani), and he says that it’s because I make it seem like I have impossible standards, and it is kind of intimidating. Someone finds me intimidating?! Wow, even I would be intimidated by myself because apparently, I am intimidating. Gosh, I didn’t realize that. I always thought it’s because I’m fat. :| Well, anyways… Armani started to teach me the “boy-luring” techniques. He told me to start posting pictures of myself doing the infamous “Friendster pose” (He says “Magpaka-baduy ka nga kahit minsan. Masyado kang anti-baduy eh.” and I was like “Ew, fuck no!”) And that’s when I realized… I do have impossible standards. I am very judgemental. Gosh, my penthouse in hell awaits my arrival. I don’t get it. Hindi naman ako mahilig sa sobrang gwapo. Gusto ko HOT. Barbs and I agreed on our qualifications. He has to be tall and malaman (in short, YUMMY). And must wear nice shoes. And nice shirts, and perfectly-sized pants. And, I think most girls would agree, wears boxers or boxer briefs. Dapat din suplado, yung hindi masyadong nagsasalita around other people, but secretly bubbly. Maraming alam na bagay, hindi lang acads o dota o anime. One big turn off na napag-usapan din pala namin is yung vain guys. Ew My God. EMG. No, please, no. Bakla much? Mas hot talaga yung effortless, yung tipong he just happened to wear the first thing he grabbed from his drawer and still ended up drool-worthy. O tama na, nag-advertise na ako dito, kasama pa ang underwear preference.

Yun lang. Gusto lang kasi ni Barbs magkaroon ng ComArtsSoc shirts na pang mag-shota.

Yung pang-female, sabi “I’M HARD TO GET”

Yung pang-male naman, “BUT I GOT HER”

Tapos maglalakad kayo sa labas, suot niyong dalawa yan.

Tanginang kabaduyan yan.

But what’s sad is sometimes BADUY feels so much better than nothing at all. :|

Tangina pengeng boylet.

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Tonight, I have the guest room all to myself, I have the TV all to myself, and a whole pack of chocolates all to myself. Which, at least before tonight, is what I would kill for every time I stay at my mom’s.

Suddenly I realized that Chandogne likes to hog the TV and keep the chocolates all to himself. I realize I miss my little brother. :(

I spoke-actually Facebook chatted- with my mother, and surprisingly, I was enlightened. I really needed someone to talk to. And suddenly staying in UPLB is 75% bearable…

I think I will be okay.
:)

What if I just stay in Los Banos and take DevCom?

Around this time last year, I was excited to apply to UP. A year has already passed and I am STILL thinking about applying. For shifting, that is. I STILL DO NOT KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO. I am really thinking about moving to Diliman. Now, I kind of regret that I didn’t think before committing to something that doesn’t even make me happy. It’s going to be hard to move, if ever things go well. Dammit. I hate that college is so complicated. I just got so used to the idea of a fixed schedule, just like in high school. You go through a school year, and after that, you move on to another level. There’s only one option. Everyone takes the same subjects, everyone moves in a uniform pace. In college kasi, you pick your path and you pick your pace. Move slow, and you get left behind feeling like a big pile of steaming crap. College is about freedom, and for some reason I just can’s stand it. Liberty kasi is so overwhelming. Remember that scene from Finding Nemo, when Nemo and his school friends reached the vast part of the ocean? The water was so blue and it appeared endless, there’s nothing in it, no corals, no rocks. There were no landmarks, you could easily get lost and you might never ever find your way back. It’s really scary. That’s how I see freedom in college. If only I could choose, I’d rather have my high school schedule back. I can’t stand college. I feel like I’m stuck, you know, like a claustrophobic stuck in an elevator. I feel so uneasy all the time. If only I passed Diliman the first time, I wouldn’t have wasted a year of my life. If only.

What won’t I give for a secured and sheltered life?